people are always asking me, "man...what's the secret of your success?" well...what's the secret of the success of a band that hasn't even kicked itself off yet? i think it's ambition. why do you go into music...let's see...you want to be on mtv and get into those videos, dancing with the pretty girls while the camera changes its angle every second, thus causing a slightly claustrophobic effect. you want to own a mansion or a ranch somewhere in the midwest in the united states, away from prying eyes of the paparazzi, where you can raise your family in peace. you want to be on the cover of rolling stone, and stay there, a pop icon fixture for years to come. mmm. for me, if i ever become a rock star, which i really, really, really wouldn't mind becoming, it'd probably be...well...probably the mtv factor, and the fact that i could probably focus media attention on the agenda of my choice. the media kills...but it can also enlight. look at band-aid [which was kinda a farce in the end]. or any of the things that bono has brought up into our attention [yes, yes, he's my hero]. so i guess that tv isn't just for junk. who would've guessed? what does the modern media do for/to us? do we dictate, as demographics, what we want to see? or are we made to watch what they want us to? i don't know...from a marketing perspective, if you can get someone to buy your product without really needing it...you're set. remember...no one really cared about the arm pit until someone told you that it stunk like hell. well, he might've been right...but you never thought about it like that before.

in that respect, you have to wonder how stupid we as people really are.

ever seen fight club? i love that movie. i would love to be someone like tyler and stand up for myself and do something about the lack of spontaniety around me. but at the same time, i'd probably sit on my butt for the whole day and just feel slightly discontent. most people aren't fully satisfied with life...that's a normal thing. we always want something more. but going all renegade, starting up a project chaos team and handing out psychotic homework assignments isn't that practical. we want the easy way out as well...i'm sure that there're people like tyler out there...who aren't anarchists. they just want change. they want more in everything. but they're not going to get it; the world doesn't exactly work in their favour. and that's rather sad...but good to know. in the end, they might just have to resort to freeing animals from a zoo. ever heard of the army of 12 monkeys?

i guess we can't get tired of life...that's basically all that we have, really. you could have your cars, and your houses, your money, your discmen, your cds, home portable unit, your refrigerator, your dental care, your healthcare, your washing machine, your computer, your handphone, your palm, your clothes, your jeans, your cologne, your perfume, your sunglasses...but...how're you here to enjoy it? why're you here to enjoy it? what if there's some other purpose in your measly, unimportant life? wouldn't you want to find that purpose?

this has been a public service announcement.