Monday, May 31, 2004

"edging pt. 2"

y'know that anxious, unhealthy feeling that i was having earlier? it could've been a mix of stomache discomfort and stress, but i managed to make three songs out of it...all spontaneous. it's all good fun. two-faced, come back home [which sounds like vintage ian] and a complete re-record of milady. it's all good today.
"edging"

here we go...july 26th is the date that's been set for the new semester to commence, so i guess i better figure out how to get plane tickets for brazil. i really want to get away from it all, so...yea. right now, i'm feeling incredibly restless...i'm not exactly sure why. at this precise moment, i'm incredibly anxious to go...i feel...weird. and i'm sweating.

okay, i just might be sick. ugh.

Saturday, May 29, 2004

"limited clubbing experience"

i don't claim to be some clubbing enthusiast...i just like to dance. it's even better when i can do it for free, so...you know that i'd grab at any opportunity to do so. anyway, helen, siew fai, mindy, melita [??], nick and i went to zouk last night under the impression that the guiness black party would be held there and that we'd get in for free. the black party was subsequently postponed, but thanks to helen's friend, we got in for free...which is a big deal, indeed.

zouk's different. maybe it's the value of the name itself, but the interior was just full-on weird. extravagant. which is most likely to be a good thing. we got in at about 10-ish, and we were only good for the club...but not velvet underground [which i'd love to get into one night]. anyway, since we got there early, they were more into playing ambient than anything else...helen was completely turned off [due to the long day and no sleep]. it moved on to a bit of weird house, and then straight on to trance...but that was at about midnight. had a vodka lime...actually, 2 jugs for RM 48...yummy.

and we left early coz everyone else was tired. well, actually, mindy and melita had to leave coz of mindy's overbearing boyfriend, and nick had to leave coz he stays in puchong, and helen and siew fai had to leave coz zouk was...well...boring.

so much for making the most out of a free trip.

yellow day was good...i guess that we can leave it at that. onwards and upwards.

Friday, May 28, 2004

"yellow and the men who wear it"

well, tomorrow...or should i say this morning...is yellow day, where the council's going to wear...yellow. or yellow tops, to be precise. now, i'm not the biggest fan of yellow...or colours, for that matter; i always thought that black was a primary colour. though i've been known to wear shades of grey and blue. i don't even mind beige. but yellow, it's a completely different thing...it's so damn...bright.

well, it's a democracy, and the council voted on yellow. yóu'd think that i'd have a say in it, but...i guess not. it was either yellow day or hawaiian day. you choose. anyway, we're having orientation day for the freshmen diploma students, so hopefully, it'd be alright. i hope that we can keep them interested. the council is viewed as a few things; two of them being stale and lame. yea, well. it's our hard work, i suppose.

but then again, why yellow? i suggested wearing black with yellow words stating..."yellow"...obviously, it wasn't very popular. yea, well. i need a diet. anyway, li vern goes to singapore tomorrow...bugger. i wish that i could go, but...well...yellow day.

and zouk. at least i'd get to wear black for that.

i salute you, mr. cash.

Thursday, May 27, 2004

"ogres and ravioli"

i'll just save space here and say that shrek 2 is just awesome. i didn't have a doubt, but it's really outdone my expectations. there might be cynics saying that it's all just trying to cash in on the popularity of the first, but it really is awesome. check out the early honeymoon montage for lots of spoofs [and check out what happens to the little mermaid]. it's real good stuff.

on another note, got sharon's chef boyardee ravioli and lasagna...canned instant food from america. heaven forbid...i'm going to eat it, wash the cans and keep them. honestly.

it's been good.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

"announcement [again]?"

hey, kids, just to tell you that i've slashed down the index to display a week's worth of blogs. in a sense, it's a cheap ploy to get you all to come back sooner, and since everyone's too lazy to look into the archives [me included], it'd be a necessity to come back here every few days or so.

anyway, it's a little over 3 a.m. on a tuesday morning and i'm cleaning up my room while airing john mayer's any given thursday dvd.

Monday, May 24, 2004

"the big 5 and 8 legs"

let's make one thing clear. i'm in love with the bmw 5-series. this is the pre-bangle 5 series...chris bangle has done a lot of things for bmw, giving it a gritty, stylized, urban look, but at the same time...it's just a little mad. anyway, the pre-bangle 5 just looks excellent at night. especially when it's silver and its headlights are at a brevity of one. with the single flare, it's just awesome.

anyway, just came back from a free screening of spider-man...the first movie, with matt, courtesy of some cinema online tickets that he managed to get a hold of. very cool. can't wait for the second one. honestly. i won't miss it.

Sunday, May 23, 2004

"the death issue"

i suppose that everybody's scared of dying. death to me is terrifying; not knowing whatever's going to happen once you lose consciousness forever. yes, forever. i remember being scared to die young because i'd never have the chance to fully realize my life and my life's dreams, whatever they were going to be. it's a strange paradigm shift...from always being defiant in saying that 'i'd rather die than fade away' to the whole 'i'd grow old before i die' trend that seems to be the rage now.

self-preservation is an art. we're all artists. anyway, i always thought of death has being unfair. unkind. it's like when the fates deal you a cruel hand because you decided to make one mistake that would forever blemish your clean slate with God. no doubt, He forgives, but He never forgets; i would expect anyone else to do the same, not less the Divine. i guess that i'm scared of death because i feel that it'd be sudden; imagine having all these great memories and this life that anyone would be proud of and the losing it in an instant.

worst off, having no recollection of it whatsoever. in fact, you wouldn't even be able to recollect anything. wait...to make it easy, my view of death is not being anywhere at anytime. you simple cease to exist. your soul, your inner being, your consciousness...what if it all ends once your body gives up? don't bother about whether or not the mind would survive...after all, doesn't death constitute of the total dysfunction of the brain more than the body?

i'm scared of dying. always have been, always will be. i believe that there's a Heaven. i also believe in a Hell. and a Limbo. and a Purgatory. i don't know what's worst; going to either extreme or cursed to walk the earth forever til Judgement. in a way, you'd want to get things over and done with as quickly as possible, yea? i don't know.

i'm just scared of dying.

Saturday, May 22, 2004

"elliot smith - between the bars"

this is hopelessly depressing. and beautiful.
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drink up, baby, stay up all night
the things you could do, you won't but you might
the potential you'll be, that you'll never see
the promises you'll only make

drink up with me now and forget all about the pressure of days
do what I say and I'll make you okay and drive them away
the images stuck in your head

people you've been before that you don't want around anymore
that push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still

drink up, baby, look at the stars
I'll kiss you again between the bars where I'm seeing you
there with your hands in the air, waiting to finally be caught

drink up one more time and I'll make you mine
keep you apart deep in my heart separate from the rest
where I like you the best and keep the things you forgot

the people you've been before that you don't want around anymore
that push and shove and won't bend to your will
i'll keep them still

"2 days in the valley"

i don't know if i've ever used that title before, honestly. i'm hoping for another restful weekend. it's 4 a.m. on a saturday morning right now, and i really should be sleeping soon. i had a slight nap earlier on at about 8-ish last night [at least i've gotten my timing right] and...well...i've stayed up playing repetitive side missions in true crime [another brilliant night spent ps2'ing away...this time on a game i've finished]. ugh. playing around with the picasa software doesn't help because...face it...i need a webcam. brilliant. Posted by Hello
"raise the ghost"

i tried to raise your ghost
the ghost inside my head
then you said
you didn't want a part in this
and i still held you near
where the only thing i feared
was being without you

alone in the dark
the dark doesn't need a friend
i pretend
that i've got company here
but i don't need misery tonight
i'm convinced that i'm alright
just without you

i'm convinced that since
you gave yourself away
you're getting farther everyday

remember when you asked
for my paper ring
you promised
you were never going to lose it
y'didn't need it after all
then you let me fall
all alone without you

said goodbye to the abyss
when i walked beside you
not behind you
it's like we were a symphony
nothing less of a tragedy
without you

i'm convinced that since
you gave yourself away
you're getting farther everyday

the joke's on me
you live and you burn
nothing's straight
if all you did was turn

i walk away from my shadow
i've killed it with the light
it doesn't shine
the way that it used to
the horizon never meets
with the sunset on the streets
without you

Friday, May 21, 2004

"evolution in phases"

i was filling up this poll that the star had distributed regarding my past ambitions and my satisfaction levels with my learning institution. thinking about it now, when i was 5 i wanted to be a motor racer. i wanted to be knight rider, subsequently. after that, i wanted to be a detective. after that, i wanted to be [i'm sure everyone went through this, i'm sure of it] michael jackson. i veered off a bit and wanted to develop video games. and then i wanted to become some sorta i/t dude, though i had no idea what i wanted to do...just that pcs were cool. after that, i wanted to be a lawyer. and then, i wanted to be a rock star. and then a marketing executive-cum-rock star. and the marketing executive part of it might change. i don't know.

if we look at ourselves in terms of ambition and such, it can change just like that. some of us probably have had this lifelong dream that we're aiming at now, while some of us have this propensity to change our dreams according to our current circumstances. all i can say is, there's one dream that i want fulfilled and i'd be willing to do almost anything for it. almost. there's only so much that i could do. some say that we're born into futility. but there's always another day for that. if i have a dream and a vision that makes me feel better, and that allows me to hope, and to a certain extent, take my mind off things and make me smile for a while...isn't that worth it? it is. i need it. i've tasted the dream; and above all things now, i want it back.
"at the expense of chicken"

well, chicken will never be the same. i could hardly survive 6 pieces of chicken. makes me wonder how i ever got through 14.25. yea, well. i must be getting older and older quicker.

Thursday, May 20, 2004

"stupor"

what am i s'posed to do?
what am i s'posed to to say?
you've made me end up feeling this way
and i can't turn back time
to a better smile

what am i s'posed to think?
what am i s'posed to feel?
i came out from this feeling half of real
and i can't close my eyes
without seeing you

so one more glass to a better day
half a glass just to feel that way
toast good luck and then we'll pray
our good times come along to stay
but there's one thing i know
it's that i need you so
and then i pull you down to the fold again

what am i s'posed to know?
what am i s'posed to face?
you've left me here with little space
and i can't walk away
i promised to stay

so one more glass to a better day
half a glass just to feel that way
toast good luck and then we'll pray
our good times come along to stay
but there's one thing i know
it's that i need you so
and then i pull you down to the fold again

knock me out with an answer
to a question that burns
take me down with a promise
that you'll be with me like how this world turns
and it turns
off an axis, off a tilt, off an angle, off a hilt
it turns for you
and then for me
undoubtedly

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

"fallon no more"

jimmy fallon's leaving saturday night live.

ugh.

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

"the sky is lost"

i looked up to see the sky falling
the sun was shining down on me
i was trying to get to shelter
days passed and i couldn't spring free

i ran away from the angry sun
i hid in holes and tunnels within
the darkest pits were dark no more
i wish for the water to cleanse my sins

i had lost the sky against my will
and now i was to pay the price
the sun followed my every move
where burning me would have sufficed
now the sun is the bitter eye
which sees me in the reddest light
i pray for the sky to rise back up
and bring upon the soothing night
"3 and 2"

another rotten piece of pie. a fool nursing a heart. an eye for the blind man's folly. noose for the hangman's art. some light for dwindling fortunes. women for fathers' lust. a table with candelit fragrance. a cross of sunset rust. mothers' love undying. the world within my door. a road leading to nowhere. a key upon the floor. choices are eternal. bones are broken split. knowing isn't learning. learn to take the hit.
"sweetest dream"

when you're dreaming
you'll be floating on the clouds
you'll be lying on the stars
waiting for the sun to rise

when you're dreaming
you'll be surrounded by diamonds
and the moon will spread its dust
to help you close your eyes

when we're dreaming
we'll keep the windows shut all night
so the cold wind doesn't blow
and chill us to the core

when we're dreaming
we'll turn the lights out
and the silence will comfort you
we'll leave the world behind the door

i can't wake up
and i don't want to
"old friends fast forward"

it's good to have a brother back. well, not really a brother, but the closest thing i have to one. anyway, li vern came back this evening, and the first thing we did tonight was to go to mcd's. and then we got thru a bit of onimusha. i'm quite proud of myself...i've actually stayed commited to the game. anyway, he's back for three months or so.

on another note, got around 77 for my second organizational behaviour assignment. i hope that i can keep this up. it's been going good and i don't want to screw up. even though they've been express assignments. at least the theory works. seriously.

anyway. onwards to more gaming.

Monday, May 17, 2004

"announcement?"

hey, kids. finished a new song called ocean. no lyrics. too depressing. but recorded.

Saturday, May 15, 2004

"joss stone - the chokin' kind"

this is sort of for hannah. so...yea.
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i only meant to love you
didn't you know it babe
didn't you know it
why couldn't you be content
with the love I gave oh yeah
i gave you my heart
but you wanted my mind, oh yeah
your love scares me to death, boy
oh it's the chokin kind
that's all it is

you can kill a girl
with a bottle of poison or a knife
i know you can
it'll hurt her more to take her pride
and run her life
oh it's a shame boy
whatever it is boy
i surely hope you find, oh yeah
i tell you that hat don't fit my head
oh, it's the chokin kind

it makes me wanna mmm mmm mmm mmm
oh yeah, oh listen to me
When you fall in love again boy
take a tip from me oh yeah
if you don't like the peach, walk on by the tree
that's what you better do, honey
find what you want boy
keep it, treat it, sweet and kind, oh yeah
oh let it breathe, don't make it the chokin kind
oh no, don't break your heart baby
oh no, I know you love me really I do, honey
i tell you your love scares me to death boy
it's the chokin kind
that's all it is
i got to say it again
it's that old chokin kind
"goliath"

undoubtedly, you're the most beautiful person that i've encountered in my relatively short life. bold words, but think about it this way; i said the same thing the first time round, and i'm still saying them now, long after anything could be anything. maybe it's the fact that people find comfort in looking back. knowledge that you're happiest at a particular place and time might influence your judgement in every way possible.

ever had someone intoxicate you fully?

ever had your doubts erased and your faith renewed?

i have. i know what it feels. help me...i want that feeling back.

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

"some things"

some things live on
long after we do
some things die fast
they go too soon
some things take time
they take too long
some things are right
some things are wrong

some things need faith
hold out a hand
some things need love
just understand
some things look bleak
but we crawl through
some things are lies
some things are true

some things reflect
we see the light
some things neglect
they tend to fight
some things don't move
they stand still
some things incite
some things do kill

i finish what i start
but i see it collapse
some things escape
right under your grasp
"onimusha 3 - demon siege"

lots of blood. very fast. very fun. that's how my first hour and a half with onimusha 3 has been like. i couldn't care for the first onimusha game because...well, i kept on getting stuck at the first boss. i subsequently swapped the game with justin for...sega tennis. anyway, we're back with the current incarnation, which stars takeshi kaneshiro as samonosuke, and jean reno as jacques.

the onimusha storyline is supposed to be intricate and whatnot, but since i haven't played the first two, i'm a bit bummed. it doesn't matter...the game's just bloody bloody. you can set the gore settings, don't worry...you queasy chickens, you.

one grouse i have with the game is that jean reno doesn't voiceover his own english lines. he does it in french, but i think he's more than competent to deliver his english lines. silly capcom. it would also be cooler if the japanese-based characters spoke japanese. subtitles aren't that bad.

there goes the authenticity. but it's still bloody fun.
"the cure for imsomnia"

i have no idea what i'm doing awake now. it's 2:02 in the morning, and i should be out, stone cold, dead asleep. but i'm not tired, and that's quite a bad sign, seeing how i didn't sleep last night due to the express assignment. i didn't think that taking a short afternoon nap would be so disastrous. well, actually...i slept from 7 to 11. i think my biological clock is just ticking off-kilter. i've been putting blind faith's can't find my way home on repeat. it's something like solsbury hill. only shorter. sweet song, really...but i can't be bothered to post the lyrics since nobody's going to be bothered to read them.

do i sense a bit of bitterness within myself?

right now i'm dying for a shower and to shampoo my hair but i think i'll resist the urge. i've got an asiapac assignment due on friday. i really should save myself the trouble and just find some sources online. which i'll be doing soon.

yea, right.

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

"express no more"
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the express essay is quite easy to do. what you do is find all your research beforehand, and then wait til the last minute to compile your sources and everything for your essay. and you have to type all of it out...in one night. i just finished my business and professional ethics assignment 2, which is my fourth express essay. though it wasn't a very good one, because most of my references became bibliography entries coz ultimately, i couldn't fit them in despite having a picture of where to put them.

there go a good waste of cool quotes that took me forever to scourge for.

i don't think that you can call an express essay a form of procrastination...after all, i found the research stuff...i think the express essay is basically a quick trip through finger typing heaven. so far, the best express essay i've done was my second assignment for organizational behaviour...the only reason why i'm so damn proud of it is probably coz of the flowcharts. oh, well.

Monday, May 10, 2004

"the police - message in a bottle"
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i always loved the song, although i never knew what sting was singing. the lyrics, my friends, the lyrics...just read them. forget john mayer's any given thursday take on this...nothing beats sting. uh, and the police.
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just a castaway
an island lost at sea
another lonely day
with no one here but me
more loneliness
than any man could bear
rescue me before i fall into despair

i’ll send an sos to the world
i’ll send an sos to the world
i hope that someone gets my
message in a bottle

a year has passed since i wrote my note
but I should have known this right from the start
only hope can keep me together
love can mend your life
but love can break your heart

i’ll send an sos to the world
i’ll send an sos to the world
i hope that someone gets my
message in a bottle

walked out this morning
don’t believe what i saw
a hundred billion bottles
washed up on the shore
seems i’m not alone at being alone
a hundred billion casatways
looking for a home

i’ll send an sos to the world
i’ll send an sos to the world
i hope that someone gets my
message in a bottle
"whiskey rasp"
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sometimes i wish i had the stereophonics' kelly jones' voice. gravelly, whiskey rasped [not unlike bryan adams'], it just works sometimes. it's just that hitting the high notes would be quite hard, though, but does that matter? anyway, the band's cover of the rolling stones' angie is dowright depressing. even more so than the original. probably because of the voice.

Sunday, May 09, 2004

"lag but do not deprive"
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my much beloved hi5 is lagging. is this already the end of the affair?

Saturday, May 08, 2004

"silly words"
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i took myself into the season unwillingly
two summers ago you didn't have to hide
i parked out on the bench that you shared with me
now there's one where there should be two sides

i sing your favourite song to bring myself to sleep
your voice is the perfect synchronatic wave
you stay away and hide the secrets for me to keep
there's no one to fall into and no one to be saved

and i wait
knowing that nothing will pass from this
and i wait
looking for my little half of bliss

blue birds still fly out to greet the sun
the sun doesn't shine on the birds
i passed by the old playground and thought of things we'd done
but all i could do was write down silly words

and i wait
knowing that nothing will pass from this
and i wait
looking for my little half of bliss

it's not the same
when forward seems denied
it's not the same
and heaven knows i've tried

the life of me has been cascading into something that is fading past the gloom under the doorway through the window and the storey and the stories that they told aren't the stories that we know but they'll say things that do matter just that we don't hear the chatter of the waves that wash on through us to the people who abuse us you desert me i desert you now we're even disconcerted all the same i want to say that i've played it my own way now i'm running from the paper and the paper bleeds eternal

and i wait
knowing that nothing will pass from this
and i wait
looking for my little half of bliss
"interlude"
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summer by the sea. spain. no, wait...ibiza. yea. dance paradise. with you. in your silly sun hat, shorts and your sandals. divinity in motion. me in a hawaiian shirt. a bit sad. blue with those white floral patterns. beach shorts. sandals. just lazing around. la isla bonita? you bet. though describing a place after a madonna song isn't the hottest thing to do. sipping pina coladas in the sand. or sinning in the sand, as they say. well. all gone now.
"faster"
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i remember your name. i remember your face. you were the dark that i fell into. you were sleep. the abyss. oblivion. you were beautiful. sad. you were so many different things. as i fall, now, deeper and deeper into nothing, i raise my glass to you. my dream of you is over; for it was only a dream. i shall arise, and start a brand new day. only to be faced with this dream. i raised a toast in your name, and you were not satisfied. i raised a shrine in your image, and you were not satisfied. i raised a god in your likeness, and you were not satisfied. you only asked for more. and i could only give, for i was indebted to you, your beauty. i worshipped you. how i did. you were a queen to my pauper. you were the king to my pea. here, i am nothing. and i will still be nothing, forever trapped in this dream.

i see you now. you are smiling. there are tears. but you are smiling, mysterious, beautiful. your head is hung. your fingers stretched. your tears shine. i catch one. two. three. they flow faster. freely. i ache to see you burn. i ache to see you cry. i ache.

and i fall. faster.
"state of emergency"
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this was fun to write. imagine a 70's blaxploitation theme. cheers.
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you pushed me off my cloud
you took it for yourself
you stole the crown from me
thinking i'd be someone else

you lied and deceived
you plundered and you thieved
and now it's all coming back to haunt you

you took away my cross
you bared it in your name
you thought you'd get away
playing rules up in your game

you taunted and controlled
you took away a soul
and now it's all coming back to haunt you

stay away
this is far from over, stay away
you will be dead by the end of this song

you ran over me again
to check if i was gone
you might've won the war
but i won't be your pawn

you buried and burned
you swallowed and yearned
and now it's all coming back to haunt you

stay away
this is far from over, stay away
you will be dead by the end of this song

Friday, May 07, 2004

"prawn burgers"
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i tried mc d's new prawn burgers today...and...to cut it short...it was good. it wasn't tartar sauce that they put on it...it was something different. also, it really tasted like prawn meat...don't look at it that way...some things which say they are don't. the problem was the long wait for it, plus the wrapping...it's plain white, with a sticker in blue writing stating what it is. very different. and it was bloody hot...as in steamy hot. fresh. i took my first bite and it burnt my tongue and i loved it. solid stuff. go try it out.

Thursday, May 06, 2004

"ian tai: rock 'n roll saviour [sermon 4]"
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no matter what your class, race, gender, religion...music is universal. and so is rock. rock breaks barriers...it transcends lines. the lines are blurred by rock. rock blurs the lines. it tears down walls; it brings people together; it creates a creed [no pun intended, you stapp fans]. rock is more than standing on a mountain top making strange gestures while power chording [no offense, creed fans]. rock is life...and, definitely...life is rock.
"coldplay - warning sign"
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a warning sign
i missed the good part then i realized
i started looking and the bubble burst
i started looking for excuses
come on in, i’ve gotta tell you what a state i’m in
i’ve gotta tell you in my loudest tones
that i started looking for a warning sign

when the truth is
i miss you
yeah the truth is
that i miss you so

a warning sign
you came back to haunt me and i realized
that you were an island and i passed you by
and you were an island to discover
come on in, i’ve gotta tell you what a state i’m in
i’ve gotta tell you in my loudest tones
that i started looking for a warning sign

and the truth is
i miss you
yeah the truth is
i miss you so
and i’m tired
i should not have let you go

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

"karpinski: truth or dare"
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janis karpinski, the former head of the military police at the abu ghraib prison, claims that she...well..."had no knowledge, not even a hint or a suggestion of any such activities". and then the finger pointing starts. she's stating that military intelligence should be involved as well, due to the fact that her troops were there more for their support than taking an active role in interrogation proceedings. also, military intelligence themselves might be diverting attention from themselves by highlighting the mps more. and the story proceeds.

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

"split axis"
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seymour hersh, the author of the new yorker article that first highlighted the abuse inflicted upon iraqi prisoners by american jailors, based much of his report on general antonio taguba's report, where the general himself had stated that what the captured were facing were "sadistic, blatant and wanton criminal abuses". you can get the cnn interview with hersh here.

as it is, the prison system in iraq already had rampant widespread torture from last fall til now, and taguba's report was submitted to the american government in february. each prison has its own special interrogation division, and most of their methods have been described as..."routine". if the treatment of the iraqi prisoners is a testament to the "standardization" of interrogation practices, then help us all; they're no better than the men they went to liberate the iraqi people from.

not exactly the best way to quell down anti-american sentiment, is it? it keeps on getting worse.
"ian tai: rock 'n roll saviour [sermon 3]"
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some said that john the baptist was a blasphemer. others say that he was a visionary. john himself said that he was simply a messenger [for a better lack of words]. that's what we all are, if we need rock to be reborn. we are not gods of rock. we are simply spreading the word. and the word, my children, must be heard. i am clearly not a rock 'n roll messiah. but i love rock 'n roll. and no comparisons to britney, please. it's more about revolution...rock was a way of life. it's more than leather pants and spandex. it's more than big hair and scorching guitar solos. rock is the foundation that we were built on. and so it will be again.
"the passion of the christ"
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i know that i've already said this to a lot of people, but the passion of the christ is a very strong movie. it's bold and it's strong, and it leaves a picture in your mind. another thing that i took away from it was this unrelenting guilt that i've become guilty of backsliding. i know i am, but after watching the movie, it made me feel that even though jesus laid his life on the line for us, and even more than that, saved mankind...i've done nothing to honour on that, no small sacrifices or small things that would at least push me in the general direction of worthiness.

i've done things that i haven't been proud of in this context, and i've put myself in the position where i just feel bad. and to get back to the point, this is a movie. yes, it may follow the bible closely, and yes, it is the closest thing to an actual reenaction of what happened during the last 12 hours, but...i've never really gotten this out of a movie before. it's hard to explain...and it'd depend on who you are as well, for sure.

Monday, May 03, 2004

"ian tai: rock 'n roll saviour [sermon 2]"
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may the rock that saved you be the rock that you save. brothers and sisters, we must come together in this time of need. we have to spread the word. too many people have been taken for a ride; popstars are manufactured faster than a roll of cotton candy. if we can't voice out our opinions, who will? it's not about singing for the moment. it's all about being there for each other. rock has taught me this. i hope it teaches you. rock saves.
"of prime ministers and proton"
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although we should applaud dr. m's determination in finding proton the best foreign partner out there [in terms of a willing acquiesce of protecting proton's interests], i think the company should be more than desperate to find such a partner. the survival of the malaysian car industry, nay, proton itself, hinges upon it. as the visionary behind the project, we can understand why dr. m would say such a thing...but dude, proton's not all that hot. find that partner first, and work your way up. some companies may not want to touch proton with a fifteen-foot pole otherwise.
"ian tai: rock 'n roll saviour [sermon 1]"
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i want to be a rock star. who will help me to accomplish my mission? we shall save rock 'n roll from the trenches of corporatization. or die trying. it's a calling that not many will heed. but let's join hands and strike back! fight the suits and ties! music will prevail. rock will love.
"rare testimonials"
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these friend-network sites are so cool. right now, my current craze as of right now is hi5.com...which is [so far] better than friendster. besides the close to empty list i have. but honestly, it's quite cool...cleaner interface, and it's faster. for now. and just to show you how deprived of online friendship i am, here's the link to be added to me. i'm pathetic. clicke here. may it serve you well.

after begging for what feels like an eternity, keong posted this on hi5 [as opposed to friendster]:

Keong says:

i owe you a testimonial on friendster. on hi5 it will be, for i have long forgotten the past pleasures that friendster has given to me. with the slow and laggy interface, hi5 is the perfect upgrade companion. what more can you ask for than the plentiful availability of young sexy single girls online? there really isn't much to say about foo. or intransigence. or tai. or ian, as he is better known. he keeps you in the dark about everything. he'd rather talk to a girl than to a brother. which is why i don't know what's happening with him. he's a bad listener, and that will never change, along with being a lousy driver. it has been 6 years since we first met but i have no regrets. you thief (yes you, and you know why). but thank you for all the bullshit you put me through, for it has helped me to grow and understand myself better. we WILL smoke weed together one day, as all true brothers do. now, you fucker, stop hounding me for a testimonial, and give me one. see you back in kl this july =)
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i'm quite content. shameless plug? you betcha. fill my list.

Sunday, May 02, 2004

"there and then and back again"
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let it be. we're back here again. i've only told one of you this. which means that the other few of you still remember this old site. kudos to you. and kudos to you for bothering to return. i couldn't really stand it. over a year's worth of blogging is here...and i figured that i might as well whine about everything as much as i like here since this really is meant for me to whine in. that sounds bad, doesn't it? yea, well. more of me. same old place. it's good to be back.