"through the window"
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it's not truly an uphill struggle that's encountered when you're trying to let go of something. it doesn't matter who that person is, it could be a deceased, a lover, a friend, whoever...letting go and accepting things as they are should never be a difficult thing. you can wash your hands and say, "hey, that's it, what's done is most utterly done". i've got a struggle in me; it's to recognize that things can't go back to what they were, and the question now is, is it worth holding on to that belief that they can?
it hasn't been that long, but i'm still angry, i'm still distressed, i still worry. i feel absolutely gutted that the best thing in my life just decided to walk away without giving me a change to prove myself. let's get to the retrospective; left me when i was ready to change. for the better? as wrong as it sounds, you betcha. damn straight. i would've given her anything she wanted, time, even...i still would, if she asked of it. you just don't go and act by yourself and cut things off because you think it's better for two people.
you want to selfish for yourself, go ahead, but it's you...someone who lives by the mantra of doing the best that you can, a mantra that we lived by, more or less. it's not everyday that it's forcibly removed from the picture so that you can take advantage of a situation. it's not fair for me, who was absolutely ecstatic over your return. you really just tore whatever it was in me and wringed it and decided that it wasn't quite good enough.
how do you deal with that? you might think that it's not that bad, but who are you to judge? what you meant to be, was quite much everything. you can say that it wasn't that bad for you, and you're right...it wasn't. but what about me? what am i s'posed to do? take it lying down? i want you with me. i still hurt. and if i still hurt, what does that mean? what difference would it make if we'd talked it over? loads.
drop all the bombshells you want. the sad fact of the matter is, i can't do without you.
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it's not truly an uphill struggle that's encountered when you're trying to let go of something. it doesn't matter who that person is, it could be a deceased, a lover, a friend, whoever...letting go and accepting things as they are should never be a difficult thing. you can wash your hands and say, "hey, that's it, what's done is most utterly done". i've got a struggle in me; it's to recognize that things can't go back to what they were, and the question now is, is it worth holding on to that belief that they can?
it hasn't been that long, but i'm still angry, i'm still distressed, i still worry. i feel absolutely gutted that the best thing in my life just decided to walk away without giving me a change to prove myself. let's get to the retrospective; left me when i was ready to change. for the better? as wrong as it sounds, you betcha. damn straight. i would've given her anything she wanted, time, even...i still would, if she asked of it. you just don't go and act by yourself and cut things off because you think it's better for two people.
you want to selfish for yourself, go ahead, but it's you...someone who lives by the mantra of doing the best that you can, a mantra that we lived by, more or less. it's not everyday that it's forcibly removed from the picture so that you can take advantage of a situation. it's not fair for me, who was absolutely ecstatic over your return. you really just tore whatever it was in me and wringed it and decided that it wasn't quite good enough.
how do you deal with that? you might think that it's not that bad, but who are you to judge? what you meant to be, was quite much everything. you can say that it wasn't that bad for you, and you're right...it wasn't. but what about me? what am i s'posed to do? take it lying down? i want you with me. i still hurt. and if i still hurt, what does that mean? what difference would it make if we'd talked it over? loads.
drop all the bombshells you want. the sad fact of the matter is, i can't do without you.
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