right now i'm in my dad's office, trying to figure out why it is that we watch news channels like cnn. i mean...i don't really watch the news all that much, but when i do, it just seems that the facts are totally presented in a one view that seems to be conflicting everything else. it looks like nothing can be presented neutrally. it's just so sad. and the worse thing is, most of us still watch the news anyway. we might realize that it's biased, we might realize that it's one big farce, but we keep on watching, anyway. it doesn't matter what we think...we all still see the same things, anyway. right now there's this discussion over the new chinese government that's been installed...whether or not they'll be any freedom for the chinese people to believe in democracy, and it's quite hard to listen to all this. they're two views...that china basically won't change, and that china will change. i can't really say anything about this...it just seems that everything's so distorted. i mean...why do we even care? well, we still watch it...it's just like never getting a saturation level on something bad. it's like sugar. yea, i know...comparing news to sugar is very strange, but...i hope you get the point. mmm.

this office is nice. there's air-conditioning.

anyway...right now cnn is presenting e-mails about the usa and iraq...and the rest of the world. when people believe in killing for the greater good, it's dangerous...highly dangerous. i can understand being paranoid, but one problem is, the usa basically can press the button and wipe someone out...anytime. and that just isn't the kind of world that anyone would want to live in. by using force, i think that basically, you're just a terrorist...albeit a much bigger one. i don't know...i also agree that one man with a grenade in his hand is just as bad as a batallion. what really makes you think is the fact that no one is scared to die for their beliefs now...and between the usa and iraq, it'd probably come down to which side sticks to its guns the most. but what do i know?...i'm just a guy with a mind. honestly, i don't think that there's a difference made in whether or not that guns are in the hands of the good guys or bad. i don't want war...and i don't think anyone does. it's hard to say whether or not attacking anyone is necessary or even effective...it just makes a point that boys with toys will flaunt them no matter what.

life is scary.