"managing change"
wednesday, february 25th, 2004
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okay. let's put it this way. it's rather easy. i can go on without her; but life wouldn't be as fulfilling. seriously, it's a strange thing to hear from anybody, no less a 20-year old who should be looking for something a little south from stability. this doesn't need one of those "4 guys sitting at table at nondescript coffee bar talking about girls and their habits" group huddles...this just needs some focused and practical thinking. here's the equation.

girl who doesn't love you anymore = past
and other girl with good prospects = future
lamenting over girl = silly

problem 1: i really do dig her. i won't even use the "L" word anymore.

of course, another problem is...i don't really want anything else. so, if not her...then it's obviously the bmw. like what i was telling kelvin today...having a girl is one thing, coz you never know when one might pop up...but "dude, the only thing standing between me and a new 3 series is a degree". wise words, ian, but...can you live up to it? oh, and that's another thing...maybe it's time to change back to ian from foo. i think ian represents some stregth left in foo enhanced by a good bit...while foo is just the all-round nice guy. ian is the all-round nice guy who's open, a bit brave and quite cool. though the latter might be hard to pull off.

it's 4:07 as i'm typing this now. bummer. gotta leave the house in...what...3 hours? joy.

managing change. not very well, thank you.