rubicks and taking control.

rubicks and taking control.

once life was about comic books, video games, star wars and malls. now, it very much still is, but life has caught up and taken me to this greater vision. i've got two clear paths in life, i suppose. one where i can screw up but do all that i really want to do, and the other which basically revolves around me graduating for graduating's sake and getting a white collar. i have to be honest with you, there're a few reasons why i have to graduate, and one reason isn't even around anymore, which sort of makes it unfulfilling. you can probably guess what it is, but this isn't about that.

i guess that we set these paths for ourselves, these courses that we can choose to guide the direction that we see best that our lives would be most suitable for. i can't do that anymore. i guess this might be an 1/8th-life crisis, but...what i want to do and what i have to do are two very, very different things. you would probably think that you wouldn't know better than the person on the outside, but i think that you really do know best. i have this dream, as unfeasible as this dream is i'd love to follow it because it would prove certain people wrong, prove myself wrong and make myself feel a hell of a lot better for myself.

but set courses and paths are all well and good, aren't they? graduate first, or don't graduate at all? we all have to compromise. the greatest lesson i've learnt during recent times. compromise is a pain, it's a bitch, but if you can, then you can reap...once it's been made. i hope it has. there're still some things that i refuse to give up on, after all. =) you know what they are.

on a side note...i've got tickets for spider-man 2...i've got tickets for spider man-2. wail, wail, la la la. never really waited so early for tickets before, but i do feel better about doing it now. thursday night, 8:20 p.m. peter parker. mary jane watson. and ooodles and ooodles of fun. i sound very pouncy. i guess i am, at this time. as ridiculous as it sounds, i'm going to leave you with the words of ben parker, and they ring true in life.

i guess that there're certain things that we can do; do you put the self in front of everything else? or, if you have the means to do so, do you handle everything else as well? i guess that's what's bothering me. i'm getting training. a degree; marketing. shouldn't it be put to better use than being put in a backburner while i plan to pursue a silly dream? because isn't that what it is...a silly dream? i don't know if life has set in for me. i think it has; i just refuse to listen.

so kids...never forget:

with great power comes great responsibility

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