so...here we are on a sunday morning. i remember sunday mornings as the mornings that i'd wake up early into...then i'd get a lift from ruby or someone to go to church and perform...or just attend. those days have long past...i definitely still do believe in God strongly...just that the church bit is a bit...tedious. i know...it's blasphemy, but i deny that i'm backsliding. maybe this is just a bit of a transitional period, but i'm just jaded with the idea of the chuch. i never said that i was a saint. most people play church politics and just pull their weight around...it's so sad that sometimes, people don't share the same viewpoint and seem to want the glory. i'm not going to be holier-than-thou [my participation these last 2 years are almost non-existent since i've been floating] but...think about why you're up there on a state performing in the first place. well...to think of it, praise and worship is like rock 'n roll...it's like one big rock concert. only quieter. now, this sounds incredibly jaded, but...we really are selling something when we're up there...but at the same time, we're also letting something in.

"like a preacher stealing hearts on a travelling show" - "desire", U2, rattle and hum (1989)

find out about the benefits about a chicken buffet...once i'm done in the bathroom.