politics: i don't care much for it, and as far as i'm concerned, it's just another game that power mongers play to gain favour and support for a variety of reasons. you could be playing the game in support of your own interests, and thus, you'd be probably serving the people for yourself. from what i always read in the papers, it seems that MPs never really show up in parliament. endless campaigning, lots of lip service, but that's all you get...a tease, not a blow. politics remains an open book to me...it's probably just like marketing, really. it's all about dressing up a penny to be a commemorative coin and selling it for a buck. and in the end, we see rifts in one single party, we get people who can't agree on anything, and we again bare witness to cronyism in the works. and then we've got the people in the parties themselves...i'm sure that there really are some good people in there who really do want to serve the people in the right way, but they can't in the end, can they? the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few. and in certain circles, i guess that the needs of the many rely more on the self than the environment. everyone wants to move up in politics...it's hard to deny that no one wants to be a backbencher. so it's no surprise that you get two "teams" within a single party (but they're chinese, anyway, so i guess being kiasu is imperative), with two frontrunners at throat's end within each other. jesus. you'd expect people to come together for the good of blah blah blah, but obviously, everyone only looks out for themselves. and that's another thing: those who opt for a mutiny. let's say that you're in the opposition...you're basically already sinking, and them you jump ship to the majority. that already underscores your desire to prevail, as opposed to sinking with the rest of the crew. it's all about self-interests, i guess. but do they perform mutiny because they can serve the people better? do you think they do? i don't know, really...maybe they do, but...i'm just a cynic. i don't even know if i want to vote. it's like an oligopoly of parties out there. i wish there were like...3 more parties that would really be different and that would just shake things up for the fun of it.

i'd vote for a gay alliance party anytime. just for fun.

why the sudden subject of politics? i guess you can say that i'm just expressing disgust on my aunt. yea, it's a personal attack...slanderous, even. i don't know what she does, really...she's apparently the mca's deputy head of strategic affairs for women or something to that extent. she's also deputy wanita mca [that's the mca's ladies' wing to the uninitiated] for kepong. she's responsible for some stuff...such as the mca helpline [though i honestly doubt the idea came from her thick head]...as well as...well...stuff [yes, i know, i'm ignorant, but...i only care about what i think]. she's all about the prestige of the job, i guess. it's quite depressing, really. she buys the malay and english dailies just to read articles about her, and to see how the interviews have gone...she constantly keeps on telling everyone about how great she was at a particular talk, sypnosium, whatever...she keeps on belittling colleagues...it brings new measure to the word "hypocrite". is she good at her job? i don't know. she was on tv the other day on this show called "wanita hari ini" ["women today"] on tv3. she appeared tense...nervous. in short: she doesn't belong on tv. not to mention the fact that she may have made an idiot of herself. but will i tell that to her face? no, i won't. and maybe that makes me more of a hypocrite than she is. but at least i can admit that, no? not to mention the amount of shite she's basically made the whole family go through, but that's a very different story for a very different time. what i'm trying to say is, if this is what it's all about...if this is what serving the people for the good of the people is about...then...we live in a very sad world. and the worse thing is, this is how it is around the world. we always cry for change...and some say that they do heed the words. well. that's all fine and good. but the fact that there're two component parties to one party alone sorta just makes it clear how sick things are. it's not a question of who's right or wrong...it's just a question of who's going to be still around when the smoke clears.

i'd love to be a politician. i'd probably be the only idiot in the mca who doesn't speak a word of chinese.