i don't mean to offend. i just want to be heard.
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revolution
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2 a : a sudden, radical, or complete change b : a fundamental change in political organization; especially : the overthrow or renunciation of one government or ruler and the substitution of another by the governed c : activity or movement designed to effect fundamental changes in the socioeconomic situation d : a fundamental change in the way of thinking about or visualizing something : a change of paradigm e : a changeover in use or preference especially in technology

i'm naive and idealistic and full of positivity. i've been told off before for being a dreamer and for not being able to keep my feet on the ground. my friends mock me because most of the gibberish i speak isn't discernible in their worlds of logic, and my greatest fear is probably turning into a man...a serious, hard, man who can't smile without being prodded to. then again, while most of my friends are wishing to get laid, i just want someone who can make me feel better through a day of shit and who can take my shit and tell me her shit and we'd just commiserate over the combined shit. i've found that in you, no doubt, but i don't want to rub it in anyone's face that i've got you because they'd probably be disbelieving, jealous, or they'd just want you. all that is understandable, because i'd feel the same way if i knew that someone like you was with someone like me.

anyway, revolutions. i couldn't see it any other way...a bloodless coup is better than a war. which is why i really kinda admire pakistan's president. no one got in his way, he didn't really threaten anyone, and although most criticize him, no blood was shed, no war was declared; he saw corruption at its finest and decided to put an end to it his way. a revolution, be it the northen irish conflict to our own left-back islamist extremists pushing for a "revolution", doesn't need the harming of innocent people to it. hell, a true "revolutionary" revolution would probably be changing something without the usage of force, without the threat of a gun...you'd propose, and people who would truly want change would accept. but nothing works like that anymore...it's all a matter of personal wants and needs and interests. i'm scared of the world sometimes...where people use one another, where everyone probably has a hidden, selfish need somewhere. no one does anything for nothing. there's always a reason for the things we do, and that just leaves me feeling paranoid and vulnerable sometimes. from people who only go to you for help, to this who're stupid enough to offer it...it's a crazy, crazy world. dog eat dog? you betcha.

where's the glory in the deaths of innocent people in the name of change? where's the glory in the millions of people who suffer because they're part of the new order you want? i've advocated and hated hitler's actions through the years...i felt pity for him and even more for the german people when the original league of nations decided to do what they wanted to what was left of germany after the first world war...at the same time, his desire to build a perfect race of fine blonde young 'uns, survival of the fittest regime didn't really strike any chords with me. persecuting the jews just because they were there, making them scapegoats, registering them and placing the star of david on them...i don't know. what makes me feel worse is the fact that back then, the rest of the world sat on its laurels, and only shimmied into action when most of europe was in the hot soup. look at america then...isolated, and now they just want to get their noses dirty, the bastards. righteous white pigs. the leaders, not the people. i've said it numerously, at least the people have more common sense. i know that people like paolo would rather have things happen as opposed to having people call for peace...he would rather have a war and for something to happen...i guess i can understand that. sometimes there really is nowhere to go. mmm.

can you feel the voltage? the way that the world stands on end anticipating? it seems that everyone wants to throw their weight around. that being bullies is the only way to go. we use and abuse power that it's become beyond taboo...it's accepted openly and willingly that cronynism and whathaveyou is a way of life. we strike out against it, no doubt, but to no avail...it persists. nations threaten each other with an impending nuclear strike, testing their weapons and showing their muscles. even smaller countries are jumping on the bandwagon. everyone has a point to prove. the whole thailand-cambodia thing is a parody...a call to arms? over comments that may or may not have been made?

why do i complain about this? because i just wish we all would just sit down and look at how incredibly ridiculous we've become. God created us in his image, but we've distorted it so much that He probably looks at things with a pinch of salt...otherwise He'd be openly disgusted with what we've become. where we meant to be so complex? perhaps, but sometimes you can't stop thinking about what would happen if there was no conflict...how much slower it would be. then ask yourself if you'd like it to be slower. mmmmph. the world turns at a snail's pace, but, no matter, we make it faster.

do people really need another revolution? a tired idea that's been recycled yet again? is peace a tired idea? do the dreamers just fade away? people need something to believe in. a revoluion of peace isn't far-fetched...no blood. just let us all have our way. i just wish all the sick and deranged people in the world would die, but that's unfair...we're all sick and deranged. no matter. f*ck the revolution.